Leading and Believing.

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This week¬†my life shifted . I’ve recently decided with¬†my word for the year: Conquer, I will fly. No more sitting on the back shelf. One of the things I love doing is talking about life circumstances. I decided to conquer, because I have dreams. For the longest, I have wanted to publish a book. It took me six years. But in that six years, I decided that I would immerse myself into the writing world to learn everything I knew. I joined two book clubs, I had writing buddies, I took time to study writing and Googled every question I had about writing and told everyone I knew , I was writing my first book. ¬†It worked !

I knew eventually, I’d wind up somewhere , and doing all of these actions would ¬†helpme to get there! Sometimes you have to just “go in faith ” in order to reach your goals!

Relief. In The Woods.

I ¬†went to the woods the other day and I think I found my word for next year. It was so freeing. I woke up in a very odd mood, one that wasn’t welcomed. But then, my girlfriend called and she asked did ¬†want to walk. Because my leg was hurting, I could have easily said no. And that leg… it really ¬† was getting on my nerves because this ¬† summer would have been so much better without the injury.

So I asked myself… ‚Äú So you ¬†want to walk?‚ÄĚ Going to the woods releases something in me I ¬†have never felt before. Empowerment.

What about you?

I guess you can see here what I did …‚ėļÔłŹ

WHERE DO YOU FIND YOUR RELEASE?

Wearing My Life Gear

Well, I think I did it. I found a word that should’nt involve ¬†too much struggle right? Conquer . It’s my word for¬†¬†2016.

You ever been scuba diving? (Well, maybe that isn’t a good example.) but then again, it’s life gear. And sometimes we need “emotional life gear.” I’ve never been scuba diving, but I have been to Six Flags on the ride you know the one that’s takes you all the way to the top, then drops you really fast? Free Fall. That’s the name…

Well, even though you know the ride and know what to expect, you are TOTALLY in, because of the excitement that lies ahead.

That’s me in 2016. I’m all in, even if this word was not the best pick! So… I did my homework …and the ¬†word Conquer is like a ¬†good monster, indeed.

Conquer: means –¬†to gain, win, or obtain by effort. ¬†To subdue.

Uh Oh – I may have mistook its power!

However, this is one that resonates from a year of being fully engaged in a well won battle Рof ENDURANCE   and that has  given me a sense of challenge, of excitement and empowerment ALL at the same time!

Life Lesson: Life is conquered by  the bravery we have in saying 
“YES”.

Come on 2016! Bring it On!

I’m so brave!

It began with an invitation. I could have said no, and in fact , I did.

I was invited to a planning meeting for one of my dreams to come true. My friend calls and invites me… and  I think about all the change and NEW experiences required and I think: (Wow.. I dunno.) It’s a leap.

But then I thought to myself : “What are you doing!”
You see, FEAR took a back seat, yesterday. It had taken six months of my year last year, as well.

I thought of the leader of this vision, her humility, her joy and her wisdom again , and I just couldn’t rationalize it away. I though about it, jumped mommy car and then showed up for everyone else .. My tribe . They  are the people I dream  of helping every day of my life . But even more so.. Those who are in my future and need new encouragement.

In that moment it didn’t matter we didn’t have a full plan. What mattered was that I was energized living life on purpose and  I was passion-filled. That’s all that mattered.
The conversation lasted that night til we were well into 4 hours and  I left, pumped. I even came home and wrote a vision I had  embedded  in the depths of my soul for years,  and  brought to the surface of my heart in only  a few hours.I came home  from this  meeting last night, and wrote an outline for a program I have been wanting to write for several months.

Life Lesson:

I learned something about myself last night: “I’m so brave!”image

Self-Determination

 

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I’m self determined. Yeah, that didn’t come easy though. It took a few great leaps of faith. It was the spring of 2005, and I was in ¬†rat race for time. I was determined to move onward my life, and relocate to Maryland. I was almost done with my divorce and I needed to breathe. And my breathing became very very labored, as I was ¬†preparing to leave Syracuse, N.Y.

Self determination began for me, with a HUGE commitment to myself that I would never again get in a relationship that was going nowhere. No promises, no commitments, no effort. And that was  the first self -commitment . I held onto that, until later that October of 2005, until later that year, God messed up my plans .

The second determined fact was¬† – that I needed a new ¬†start. A new job and a better and more intriguing place to live . I had friends in Md. And surely with the money I’d saved, I could truly begin anew.

I remember it clearly.

I wrote down my dreams . Where I wanted to go… and ¬†I ” built a spiritual ¬†altar…” – so to speak… I placed it right above my head, ¬†so it was the first thing I saw when I awakened,¬† in my lofty bedroom, nI lived in with¬† two¬† college roommates in¬† Hamilton, N.Y.¬†¬† I would awaken and the first thing I would do, was¬† pray. ¬† I began to thank (God) and I worshiped Him for where I was going. I began to affirm highly with thanksgivings into God where I was going to go. I’d¬† read my card,¬† give thanks and proclaim it as a prosperous place.

With the ¬†cultural ¬†holiday of Kwaanza , they call self -determination: “Kuji-cha-gulia”. After what was entirely messy year – I¬† was almost at the end of¬† 2005, and had ended up taking on three part time jobs¬† ( at the same time)¬† to¬† survive, and was about to¬† lose my apartment. ‘

I was¬† in¬† a very agitated and¬† anxious state.¬† I had just met my husband to be, and didn’t¬† even know it.¬† He would call me daily and pray with me.¬† At that¬† time, he had resorted to just be my friend, and pray with me, since I was a having a hard time. I had¬† told myself¬† that¬† I would ¬† have to move back to N.Y. if I didn’t¬† find a cheaper¬† apt.¬† And…¬† then it just happened.¬† Every think I spoke into existence ¬† eight months earlier, just started happening. One after the other.¬† The job, the home, the¬† increase in pay… etc. My¬† husband to be became¬† the love of my life that October,¬† and six months later I relocated to Texas with an even better paying job. But¬† here is all the misfortune that occurred before¬† that¬† happened: my money bottomed out , I quit the $7 dollar an hour job ; lost¬† a few¬†¬† of my friends; and failed ¬†the test I thought would help me find a better paying job. I was all alone, at one point,¬† but I was okay with that. I had been alone with God before.

But I learned something about myself and …God. That you have to believe in your dreams.¬† Not matter what bottoms out, you still have to keep dreaming. And just when it appears those dreams won’t manifest , God will come through.

The Life Lesson:

God comes through because He’s so pleased you believed in Him and in your¬† belief in His ability to pull¬† you through.

Vision Casting.

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It began with an invitation. I could have said no, and in fact , I did.

But then I thought to myself : “What are you doing!”
You see, FEAR took a back seat, yesterday. It had taken six months of my year last year, as well. I cam home and wrote an outline for s program I have been wanting to write for several months.
My friend calls and invites me, I think about all the change and NEW experiences required and I think: (Wow.. I dunno.) It’s a leap.
I thought of the leader of this vision, her humility, her joy and her wisdom again , and I just couldn’t rationalize it away. I though about it, jumped mommy car and then showed up for everyone else .. My tribe . They people I dream pinwheeling every day of my life . But even more so.. Those who are in my future and need new encouragment.

In that moment it didn’t matter we didn’t have a full plan. What mattered was that I was energized living lifen on purpose and ¬†I was passion-filled. That’s all that mattered.
The conversation lasted that night til we were well into 4 hours and  I left, pumped. I even came home and wrote a vision I had  embedded  in the depths of my soul for years,  and  brought to the surface of my heart in only  a few hours.

Life Lesson:

I learned something about myself last night: “I’m so brave!”

100 Meaningful Moments

I  found myself hash-tagging beautiful moments of gratefulness  the other day on Instagram and a bit on Facebook; and decided to share a few here, as well. Follow me at @iamjennrene on Instagram, and http://www.facebook.com/redseacourage

Meaningful Moment  #1 Dusk.

So dusk is a wonderful moment as a day ends that’s often more noticeable in the winter. It’s also most beautiful in the winter. You can see the beauty, because it’s so there, so present. So meaningful because you would miss it if you blink. I enjoy dusk mostly because I anticipate what’s ¬†next: my special time with hubby as we wind down in the evening, we eat, we rest together watch a movie, and talk about the highlights of our ¬†day.¬†#100meaningfulmoments


Meaningful Moment #2 Dawn:

Dawn is like Dusk, but not really. They are the same because the light bounces of the buildings in hues and everything is sacred for a few good moments; but after dawn settles, life gets busy. After dusk settles they stay rather quiet and serene. I guess it just depends where you are; and then it as ¬†you retires, it subsides . Dawn rises and rejuvenates, and dusk allows you to quietly settle in for the night. I have to admit, I enjoy nob thong them in the winter, because they are more noticeable . There’s no trees or dogs or ¬†not even many cars in the way, at all.

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