This very well may be first writing in 2018 on Receiving. I suppose if I set a goal, then by the end of this year, both you and me shall learn immensely about my one word. (So my first goal is to truly see where this precious word leads me!)
I will say this, this evening I wasn’t even looking for the word and it sort of “popped up” on the screen , STARING AT ME as if I asked the word to embrace me. Accept.
I wasnt sure… what wasn’t I accepting? What did I not desire to receive? Why was this word already of “Receiving” challenging me so very soon into the new year?
Seeing the word “receive” in this definition, the same word offered unto me “as acceptance”; gave me goosebumps! I wasnt ready… but my word said I was. So why do I need “consent to receive?” I asked. Consent is needing permission for something to happen. Or needing agreement in order for something to happen. Here it is 20 days into the year and I still havent given myself permission to receive.
And so…. I struggle with my writing and with my soul to acknowledge what’s been hard to believe since the end of December. It’s time. To walk in. To believe. To receive.
I think I have been looking for this kind of VALIDATION for such a long, long time. And I am not sure if I am still there. But I shall keep surrendering. I think its the quickest way unto Receiving.
As if receiving has a door gate, and I am the gatekeeper.