8. Oh Jesus…50!! #50DaysToFifty

FB489488-B3B2-45C1-99AC-3BE930B95659 Yeah so when I was a little girl I really thought fifty was a big deal. I thought 50 year olds were old. When my mom turned fifty, I remember asking her questions like: “So how does it feel?” And she’d say: “Oh, it doesn’t feel much different than a year ago.” I could never see myself as almost or even near fifty, and if I did make it there, I thought it would be a miracle.

And so..

Now I am here.

And all the more WONDERFUL that I am.

Amazing. I still haven’t figured out if LIFE slows down, or “I” just have slowed down a bit. I think it’s me.

Now I can seem to appreciate all that’s around me and even “value” differently if I want to. I still enjoy helping folk. I thought at some point in my life, that would become less interesting , and I wouldn’t want nor desire to be a social worker/ counselor/ mental health therapist , anymore.

But it didn’t change.

It just became a bit sweeter. And the job more refined. Feels good.

As I was writing this, I realized not everyone feels the same about getting older. Some are depressed, some are really just feeling awful about it, and others are just like : ” Can’t I just be 35 again?” I actually enjoy again. First of all, I can’t do anything to reverse it, and as long as I have a cool partner to hang with, I’m good.

Well, I just noticed that the reason I feel so good about gaining another year, and actually arriving here, is because I don’t take life for granted. I just really, really appreciate my life, my family, and my friends and all the fluff in between. I don’t have a lot of fluff, but it sure feels good to think like I can ‘create’ some fluff’, every now and then.

Here’ what’s wonderful about fifty:

The fact I can be myself. With no explanations.
The fact that I am ME. Purely Myself, and I like myself. And who I’m becoming.
The fact that life at this age, you kind of know what to expect. It doesn’t really get any easier, and it really doesn’t get any harder, either.
The fact that I have an empty nest, and have had one most of my life And it’s OK.
The fact that life is GOOD. I like keeping it simple, here.
The fact I have lived my life in such a way that I look younger than 50; and being quite content with that.
That all my nieces and nephews have grown up and I get to see what they’ve become.
The fact that I can see what miniatures of them look like, now as well.
The fact I can do #Netflix&chill …and be OK with just about a few eves a week. ( Why do we put the words ‘Netflix and chill’, together?” ) (What’s that about?)

I think my joy for living and helping others truly live and thrive – is what keeps me going. Someone, somewhere is often way worse off than I am, and I think it’s what keeps me going in the field in which I work, the life that I live, I know this. And I’m not doing all that bad, I guess.’

Again, just so you know… I will be writing about my “fifty days to fifty” series until I am done. I’ll be fifty a while, so.. stay tuned. 😉

again,

3 responses to “ 8. Oh Jesus…50!! #50DaysToFifty”

rrdavis09

September 15, 2017

I loved it!!! So special thoughts full of gratefulness! Hugs, hugs and happy blessed 50!!!

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