So I have been taking a series of photo shots and microblogging as it relates to ne turning fifty, this year. Then I realized the photos alone, were not enough. Yes, they speak, but there’s so much more to say.
Some of those photos are pretty spectac… and the others ..well, they are just me, being me. I like the feel of almost being fifty. It’s been rather contemplative, reflective and solemn.
It means I can sit on my porch at ‘dark thirty’ and just sit outside and be me.
I like the freedom involved at 50 to of myself. I’ve heard several say at fifty, ‘ you just become more relaxed and less matters.’ I find myself at fifty – yes, being more relaxed but also feeling more mature. In mind, body and spirit. The best way to describe it is just feeling as if I take time for internal rest.
I am beginning to think I know what it means to be myself, too. To feel comfortable in my own skin. Over the years I’ve struggled with relationships – mostly friendships, being that I’ve moved so much in my adult life. I’ve had awesome friends but then had to leave them, as I aspired for ventures that offered me a better career and more time being closer to family. There’s been a lot of sacrifice. All for great reasons. However, at fifty, there’s a retreating to “what’s right”, to and for the soul.
I feel more luxurious, at fifty. It means at fifty, I can just sip some tea on a nice evening on the patio in the am, because it feels so good to just have fresh air and tea ‘ mixed together.’
Or it may mean I get to take an extra nap on a quiet, wet and rainy morning or afternoon .
Sometimes it means I get to listen to my thoughts, in absolute silence.
And laugh as I ponder over my favorite photos of my nieces and nephews.
As I allow them to simmer, and I can just meditate on being grateful.
Thoughtless, musings …grateful ponderings, simmerings of tea and a good spirit of nothingness… yea that’s what it means to be 50.
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