I Am Enough Because I Am Insightful.
Being Insightful requires that we are intuitive human beings.
We think clearly. we consider and that we make decisions. For a very long time, I did not make decisions. I chose not to. Because I was too afraid. I decided that if I made a decision someone would suffer, and most likely that would be someone I loved. And of course, it would be me, as well. I was in a relationship where I wasn’t treated very well, and I chose to stay. I did think of leaving …more than once. Yet I suffered. I decided the day I made the decision to move on, that I would not be in a relationship again until I knew “who I was”, in that relationship. Because I had gone so long in this relationship without an identity. So long… and didn’t change anything about myself.
How crucial it was, to own my soul. Every time I gave my soul away, I would give away a piece of myself. I decided that I would work on changing myself, and start dreaming. I wrote down on a piece of paper all the things that were wrong. It turns out , those things were the things that hurt me the most, and had begun to leave scars. So I needed to leave, in order to no longer be treated that way.
And so I did. The day I chose to leave, I believe my destiny began to be released. I began to “feel and be ” happier in my everyday life. I felt a weight lift off of my chest. I began to smile more, and care less about the person who hurt me, and more about myself first; because for the first time I saw surprise in their eyes. They couldn’t predict my actions. And that was good stuff. And that surprise to me was a sign I was doing something right. So, I began to move along and do more out of the box – selfish, yet self-loving acts.
Before I left the relationship, I was really meditating on hearing my spirit more, and one of the phrases I heard often was: “Take care of the God in you.” The God in me, was loving, caring full of strength, love and full consideration of how to love others back in a righteous way, and that, I wanted to model for others, and for my children, one day as well. I began to keep my ears keen for people who demonstrated the same kind of love for me, and on the weekend of October 14th, 2005, I heard it. It as very keen, and it was exactly what I was looking for. Although l really didn’t expect it so soon. A man I didn’t know very well, (yet considered a friend from a leadership event a year before) , began to speak to my heart. We talked for hours that weekend. And it was as if every moment was absorbed through my ears, into my skin, my intuition, and straight into my heart. He spoke to my worth. That honorable and distinguished man became my husband. All of the junk and the misconceptions and lies were washed out of my brain and my head was clear enough to hear it.
I decided that day, I would begin a new journey to loving me, because I knew once I began to truly love myself, I would feel completely deserving o my own good. And even when opportunities presented, I would find them to grace my life with complete favor.
So here are the beautiful blessings of having insight . Insight involves three beautiful life-changing factors:
- Intuition. Intuition is described as “the ability to understand something immediately, without the need for conscious reasoning.”There are some issues we experience in life, we just know. We don’t know ‘how we know, but like my former pastor in Texas used to say: “We just know it in our knower.” I have collected and meditated even, upon this thought over and over when I needed to make a the right decision, and depending upon my “knower” was always what held me upright and allowed me to keep my head up – without shame, in the end.
- Knowledge. Knowledge because it takes the sifting of what we learn via our intuition, to help us move forwards without disgrace. and move forward with our heads held high in confidence we are moving in the right direction.
- Understanding. Understanding is like necessary for agreement and togetherness. Once you have a good understanding not something, it helps you become an ally or support for someone else. The Bible says It also tells us to even not rely on our own understanding. I have seen far too many rely on it, and fall back on shame. And often disgrace, for a lifetime.
When you don’t have these three awesome factors, you fall upon inexperience, naivete’ you become neglectful, it effects your reputations and you become really insensitive towards others. I used to always pray for God to keep me humble, Sometimes I believe the results of those prayers today are embedded in my character, with insight, because I listened within, and I heard myself speak in my heart, as well as my soul.
I prompt you today:
To LISTEN to yourself. Remind yourself constantly of what you believe in, and then… then walk those impenetrable values out.
As long as it protects your thought life, your reputation, your spirit, and your life hold on to what you believe!
When was the last time you listened to someone else before yourself, and how much time did it cost you?
Was it more beneficial for you than anything else?